"falling in love..."

Well, Jynessa, my sister and I have been watching the first season of the secret life of the American teen, season one, all day! I actually really like it, it can become very addicting! Well, I encourage you to go watch it, as we are at the moment! WOO-HOO! :)


GO WATCH IT, NOW NOW NOW!

Just because I'm in the mood...

I've been creeping some things, and I just feel like sharing!

PONYO! - don't ask, I just REALLY want to watch it! :)






I'm supposed to be cleaning but...
I guess I've been a bit bland and boring- the two things I NEVER wanted to be- lately, but I'm hoping that will change as soon as excitement enters my life once more. There's nothing really exciting that happened recently, other than the MMVA's, but face it, that was a WEEK ago. It's not that great anymore... Remind me to finish that post!

I've been watching alot of gossip girl with my sister recently, and I'm a HUGE fan of taylor momsen,

Can you believe that she's only 15! Well, I've got to get cleaning my room, it's finally been painted! YAY! I'm off, visit me on my two other "life" sites;

http://twitter.com/jessicaeff
http://forgiveandforget.tumblr.com/

NOW NOW NOW!

Flooded with all this pain,

Well, a while ago, I broke my camera... Now, I'm Ipod-less. I guess I'm going to have to wait until I do get another camera or Ipod, but that doesn't mean I haven't been searching. Here's some candy for MY eyes at least... ;







They're water proof and shock proof too! WOOO! :)

ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.

Chris Bosh touched me. Brody Jenner touched me. Taylor Lautner touched me. JOE JONAS touched me, more than once. NICK JONAS touched me, 3 times... Kevin Jonas didn't touch me..., but he winked at me, I swear. Fergie Touched me. Kelly Clarkson touched me. I can't even explain how amazing the night was.

We started to line up to enter at around 8. It was just Rania, Carrie and I... Anyways, it was BURNING HOT. I got sunburned. But, whatever. So, we made friends with the people sitting next to us. They were amazing. When Rania and Carrie decided to leave to go to the washroom, The JoBros drove by in their car, Joe opened his window and waved where I was sitting, since they left me alone... ANYWAYS. After that we saw Jordan Francis and Aaron carter who talked to the people there because he was desperate for fame once again. We went to Pizza Pizza for lunch becuase we didn't know where else to go. There was people EVERYWHERE. At a little after 6:30, we started moving to enter through the gates. My feet have never been so sore. We were RIGHT infront of the stage, beside the catwalk. Afrogirls decided to be in front of us and we spent half the time trying to push them out of the way. Anyways. I'm too tired and lazy to explain right now, SO, if you wait a while, I'll be back to finish this super long post. Goodbye for now! :)

IT'S OVEEEEEEER!

Hello summer! I'm so happy I have you. LAWLS. My last exam was today, meaning, I'M DONE SCHOOL! WOOOOO! I'm not a niner anymore, sad, I know, but I am now a sophmore. This summer is already off to an AMAZING start; Performing at the waterfront festival on saturday, MMVA'S on sunday, beautiful sun outside everyday, Summer school even sounds amazing. I keep reading my yearbook comments, they always make me so happy. I'm still searching for William, I just hope that he's safe. I'm dying without a musical device, I NEED music! My CD is getting annoying because it's the only thing I play now. I think I might just have to start listening to the radio... NO. NO. NO. I will either Track down William, or introduce a new member to my family....

SO, I was supposed to tell you about the MMVA lineup like a week ago. No worries, here I go. So, we were in front of MASSIVE druggies who decided that they wanted to give me second hand smoke by smoking their cigarettes like every 5 minutes. No big deal though, it's now like they killed my lungs. (<-- Sarcasm) LAWLS. Okay, so we waited overnight. And I was panicking because I came late and didn't have a number. So Rania's wonderful father talked to the security or someone and he got me a number. We took like 50 bathroom trips but we had to walk SO FAR to go to the washroom. It was crazy. Carrie and Rania slept like the whole time.... Then the next day, I started panicking again because my number was 938A, with an A at the end. So I didn't think I'd get a wristband. But I did. And I was just being paranoid. Hahaha. Okay, now we;ve just got to conquer the lineup for the actual show. WOOOO.

Woah, that was longer than I thought...

2/4

LINES, VINES, AND TRYING TIMES is actually AMAZING. I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT. Too bad William isn't here to share this musical interest with me. MY POOR BABY! WILLIAM :'(. UGGH, I really NEED their new CD. How come all the fake teenie fans have it but I don't!? Gaah. I'm halfway there baby! 2 more to go! French was actually not as bad as I thought. There's still music and then MATH to go. Lord, please help me. I'm glad there's something called youtube, it's my personal music player at the moment. WILLIAM! UGGH, I can't. I feel like someone died. William was really truly like my LIFE. And now he's gone. he's been through EVERYTHING with me. Like my dog, except more. He's helped me through the painful times, and the happy times. He's mended my heart :(. WILLIAM :'(. I'm going crazy without him. What am I ever going to do?!
Seriously, if you find my Ipod, and you'll know if you see it, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. If ANYONE stole it, I'm not even lying, I'm heartbroken. I just want to cry happy tears again...


WILLIAM, I MISS YOU :(

"turn right
into my arms
turn right
you won't be alone
you might
fall off this track sometime
hope to see you on the finish line"

I'm actually LOVING the new Jonas Brothers album. There's my new recommendation, go listen to it! Go buy it! Really. NOW NOW NOW! These boys are smart, changing their sound. Smart, Smart, Smart!

LOVE THIS ! AMAZING. :)



AND THIS!

1/4

Just making a dent. Barely there. Barely any studying. There's only two things on my mind; William, my ipod, and Life, where am I headed? I feel like I've come at a crossroads again. Like I don't know where I am or where I'm meant to be. Is this me? Can I say that this is who I am and mean it? I don't think I'm doing much but confusing myself. This is me. But who is this?

Lines, Vines, and Trying Times released today. Too bad I'm most likely NOT ever going to get the album, it's cool no big deal though.
Ps. That's sarcasm.

http://forgiveandforget.tumblr.com/
http://forgiveandforget.tumblr.com/
http://forgiveandforget.tumblr.com/
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:'(

Last day of my niner year. Last day of having a 9/10 split with the grade 10's in our music class. Last day before exams. Last day of having classes with amazing people. Last day of eating lunch with Gloria and Jordan. Last day of studying before my first exam. Last day to make a difference. Last day to see certain people. First day with our personal trainer at the gym.

Although this day was filled with lasts, plenty of firsts are to come. I don't want to be all corny and sappy, but I really am going to miss everyone and this year. I guess I've come a long way, but I'm only beginning my journey. It's going to be an amazing grade 10 year. Right now, I just want exams to be over and for summer to be here.

SUMMER IS COMING, SUMMER IS COMING!

So, summer is quickly approaching. And frankly, I CAN'T wait! And since this quick approach, stores and boutiques are having their summer sales! Urban Outfitters has so many things on sale, it's like the whole store! Next weekend, before the MMVA's, I'll most likely, hopefully be going shopping. yay yay yay! BUT, I'll have to pass exams first. Then there's summer school... AND, I'll tell you all about the MMVA lineup... LATER. I've got to study more, since I got distracted and haven't yet...

No words to explain,

I'M SO TIRED. All I've been doing is sleeping since I've gotten home on saturday night. Exams are this week and I HAVE to get my exam reviews done. I still have to study for them too. I don't know ANYTHING for french and I'm crossing my fingers for math. I just hope I pass. Like ALL my marks are in the 60's. NOT good. Uggh! Off to study, hopefully, this goes right.

...

You know what I hate? Being sick.
MMVA line up tomorrow? Not so sure anymore.
I HAVE to go to school tomorrow due to missing EQAO today... Life's almost at it's best. My bed's looking like the place to be at the moment. I'm going to do what I've been doing all day since I left school early; Sleep.

Honestly?

I HAVE A SORE THROAT AND I HAVE A PLAYING EXAM TOMORROW. FML.

Seriously?

FML.
FML.
FML.
FML.
I guess it's just one of those days WEEKS.
Whatever, I'll live.
EXAMS next week. MASSIVE pressure. EQAO TOMORROW. Too bad I'm not ready for it AT ALL even though I got "tutored" today. Seriously, I'll just fail. That's what my birth was leading to anyways. failure. I don't even know what to say anymore. I guess I should grow up and mature. Whatever, I just won't talk for a while. I don't think that will last either. We'll just have to hope that my last week of being a niner doesn't turn out to be living hell. Kay. Bye. Enjoy my vents, I have a feeling you'll be seeing them a lot for this week. Just pray that I don't turn all emo again. please. Thanks. Okay. Bye.

... ouch?

You know what actually REALLY hurts. Not even being INVITED to one of your so called "good friends" quinceanera. Seriously? I'M STILL HERE. Am I THAT easy to forget? Honestly, I was okay with the other people not remembering me, but YOU?! I thought we were "friends", wtf was that? I don't even know anymore. Do ANY of you still remember who the hell I am?! I wouldn't be surprised if you don't. I honestly don't know who I can consider as a friend anymore. It seems as if everyone just found someone else to hang with and moved on and left me standing here as if I'm nothing. I don't know what I'm to do anymore. I wouldn't be so mad if I hadn't wasted EIGHT years of my life in that elementary school. If I hadn't known you for at least 3 years. It would've been fine. I guess I'm easier to forget than I thought. Was I just some phase in your life? I hope I wasn't. I thought you'd at least remember me when you saw me at the grocery store. I'm pretty positive I look the same or at least similar to when you last saw me. NONE of you Milton children have even thought to at least try to go "hang out". I haven't moved away, but I probably should, because it's like I'm practically not here anyways. Don't worry, if and when I have my debut, just know that pretty much none of you farmkids will get an invitation, since I don't go to school with you and all anyway, so what's that point? Fyou.

Oh, the woe

I kind of wish that I could be cool and artsy. My blog's not that great, it's odd. I don't know. My mother and sister are napping, I'm on the computer writing this. We're going to the gym later on. I still need to START my geography culminating assignment that's due tomorrow... Great.
I'd try to be artsy, but I like who I am right now.

PS. I actually really want to go to the MMVA's...
PPS. I REALLY want to watch the movie UP.