Go big or go home!

Twitter's got me guys, I'm getting into the addiction, oh no!
Haha, I'm following 34 people, goodness, I'm so lame!

So, I want this;
"DON'T FORGET LIMITED EDITION - CD + DVD
Includes LA LA LAND, GET BACK PLUS 2 BRAND NEW SONGS

DVD Experience Features a Live Performance, Music Videos, Making of the Videos, In the Studio, Behind the Scenes at Jonas Brothers Burnin' Up tour, Photo Slideshow and more! "

Like, how cool ?!
Seriously, I absolutely adore Demi Lovato!
Uh oh, creeper status....
Last semester, I made a vow that I'd stay "down" this semester, that I'd stop being a creep and stop creepin', looks like it's not working. Oh well, what can you do right?

I had some great bonding time with BPLANT* today, he told me his life story in a nutshell. We were both kinda waiting after school, I was bored, so why not talk to the kid? LAWLS, he said he broke his phone when he got hit by a car, and that he's getting in trouble for pointing a laser in his teacher's eye and according to him almost giving him "eye cancer". God, I love that kid.

Math is much funner now, it has been taken over by a student teacher whom I don't even know the name of. KA* stole the cool song I was working on in class, called "dump him", he was mad because it was about him and his girl fraaand (I'm going gangster on you-NOT).

Geography was better today, french, oh french, please no! We have this assignment thing due, there's two options; record the radio taping thing, or do it live-as in in front of the class. Then, there's two problems; I sound like I'm 5 when I talk on recordings or on the phone, and I'm absolutely TERRIFIED of speaking in front of my class publicly.

Well, I'm going to finish American Idol with my mother.
As of next time kiddies !

PS. I'm still reusing those tags! I can't make cooler ones anyways...
PPS. You're still going to get those music reccommendations, patience, children, patience.

* Names to be disclosed.

Ben And Jerry.

My new best friends.
LAWLS, that ice cream is BOMB. I've found love.
God, I'm such a fat kid! Goodness, unless you really want to pack on the pounds, go to the grocery and invest in some good ol' Ben And Jerry's ice cream; my new personal favorite, banana split. Yum! Oh, thanks SR* for the grocery shopping spree.

Children, I just kissed a 50% off clearance sale at the thrift store Talize. I really need to do some spring/summer shopping, I hardly ever do, so you know this is important! I should really embrace my "girliness" no matter how hard it may be, sometimes one of the boys, has really got to make that change. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted.

Nothing really happened today, I did some research kiddies! Jessica has some new music recommendations, be happy. If I'm lazy enough I'll post them here, but if not you can find them on my tumblr account!

I have a scratch on my face, it was papercut bleeding, it was from a pen. Ouch? I took it in, don't worry, I don't cry over boo boo's anymore!

I'm thinking of changing the layout of my blog again, and the link... suggestions ?
My blog seems so lonely these days, sigh, maybe it's just because my life isn't getting anymore exciting.

OH! News, news/update! I was terribly upset this morning in geography class, a true "fml moment". God, how many times does it take a person to understand that I don't appreciate it when you mock me and such, it's never great. Like, I'm sorry-no wait, I'm not- I get nervous okay, I talk fast when I'm nervous, I absolutely despise public speaking. I'm not perfect, no one is. I'm also not sorry if I'm asian, does it look like I can magically change my race?! Obviously not, I never chose to be born "yellow", heck, I'm not even yellow, what is up with that!? I'm probably one of the "whitest asians" you'll ever meet. I can't change that about me, although at times I wish I could, I can't, it seems the world is creshing down on me because of it, because of my unchangeable skin color. God made me this way, and if God wanted me to be yellow, so be it. That's just a part of who I am, and if you don't like it, frankly, I couldn't care less, because truth be told, you're just another waste of time, and I have a life, I don't need to be in yours, or you to be in mine.


Darn, sorry for the harshness and the cruel venting! Thank's for taking it in for me, seriously, I appreciate it.

Once again, I'm reusing my cool tags! I'm that cool, once again kids, the three r's;
Reduce, Reuse, Recycle.

Tweet Tweet Tweet and away we go!

I'm getting addicted to twitter, oh goodness!
Okay, so here's my wish list for summer;
One: Professional-ish camera; for my 'photography' & to replace my broken one :(


Two: laptop; this can wait until Christmas or birthday :)
Three: Keyboard. As in piano keyboard. With all those cool effects, then I can like put it in my room and jam out more!
Four: Drum lessons & Drum kit.
Five: This one's more personal, and no, it's not a boyfriend! Seriously, if you're close to me, you'd know...

Well, that's all for now!
I'm watching the Juno's, they're actually not half bad, I'm enjoying it, except nickle back opened them...
Yippee ?

I SO WANNA GO THRIFTING TOMORROW !
50% off at the thrift store !
Like AMG, take me take me take me!
:)

WOW.

So, I'm currently youtubing, and I found this;


seems like they're trying to change their sound-and their look?, it sounds a lot different.... Don't get me wrong, I kinda like it....

PUH-LEASE, if this wasn't obvious enough!
They're so happy, they're going to rip their fan's arms off.
Aww, Kevin's so adorable, Joe's hair looks odd, Nick is slowly out growing his brothers.
Let's stop calling them "my boys"- they really never were...
God, I do miss those old "dedication" days.
I think love's paying it's toll on me once again.
But their words can be complete lies if you believe them.


teenies teenies teenies ^@%#^@%*$&%&@$!@&^%!

Sorry guys, I found all my tags, I'll be reusing them!
3 r's;
Reduce
Reuse
Recycle !

what do you do when it all falls apart ?

I'm just always agitated, the world would annoy me if it said "hello".
Really, my mom isn't making anything better about it, she somehow finds a way to turn a perfectly content moment into a miserable short lived one. I spent half an hour walking around Costco because I got annoyed. I try, I really do, but sometimes it's all too hard to just "take it in". I managed to get a good little rhyme from it though. It's to noob to post here. I'm becoming the person I hate, that person that just drifts from the world. I don't want to be that, I want to be that girl that grew up in a perfectly loving family again, but it's getting difficult. Maybe I'm just at that age where everything starts to change, but then slowly goes back. Maybe it will never be the same. But I have MY dreams, I never took yours, I had MY plans, why would I need yours?! I had my own life, I don't need to live yours. I'm not trying to be anyone but myself, I don't want to walk in your footsteps. I want to make my own dreams, my own road, my own success. I'm sorry if you feel that I stole your dreams, I never intended too.

And I'm still pretty upset that I missed the KCA's.
Living the life, driving down that highway, making a way.

Well, I think I'm done ranting today.
It is what it is.

"I'm sick of it".

What's driving me is following my dreams,

Earth Hour.
Kids Choice Awards.
It really sucks that I don't have the channel to watch the Kids Choice awards, and that coincidentally tonight is Earth Hour. I love spending an hour in the dark, I'm not terrified at all! That was sarcasm by the way. They should really show the Kids choice awards on FOX....
Well, I'm not some award show addict, but I LOVE watching them, it's like, I don't know, it just makes you feel giddy sometimes, or like in on something.
I have 25 minutes before earth hour, I'm going to squeeze in all the electronics I can during that time.
Wish me luck!

Happy Earth Hour, although most of you are probably enjoying the Kids Choice awards at this time...

I need to upgrade my basic cable.


Children, this blog is LIFE, seriously, check it out!;
http://domonomnom.tumblr.com/

I actually really like tumblr...
I'm not making the permanent change yet, you still have me here on blogspot!


Other NEW links to click...
Tumblr Link; http://jamwithjessica.tumblr.com/
It's pretty lame right now, it's under construction...
Twitter Link; http://twitter.com/jessicaeff
Don't make fun of my twitter! I'm still pretty noob with it :(

just like trash,

I feel like I've been put aside and thrown away.
It's like, that friend post thing earlier.
And, I know I'm awkward and such, but our friendship now is more awkward than I will ever be, and that really bugs me.
I mean, we used to be so close. I honestly don't know what could've happened, what went wrong.
I guess we've just "drifted apart". Pfft, would things still be the same if I stayed at the school in this small town ? I doubt it. Is it because I'm attending another school ? I still live in this town, I didn't really go anywhere. Maybe it is true what they say; "High school shows you your true friends, and the true you".

God, I should be sleeping.

PS. I created a twitter account today, eat me if you're hating, really, I don't care.
http://twitter.com/jessicaeff

FAJAAAAAAAAAA!

I'm all stress out with the two dambohala daughters, Jenn is making a mess making her %^%^&*^* cookies......about 1 hour ago from web

My father's twitter update....
yes, he has a twitter.

LAWLS, here's his latest one;
I'm cooking a brown rice instead of a white rice.....hope it taste the same......

Forget me not.

Swinging on the swings at the park near your house, wearing your favorite dark skinny jeans, your old brand less shirts and your old converse after a long winter, it kind of makes you realize; time goes by really fast. This time last year, it was probably like now, getting ready for a big(sort of) performance, last year it was the school musical, this year, spring concert. Well, I love sitting on a swing, by myself, thinking. The surroundings are breathtaking, especially when it's nearing the sunset and you get to witness the light pink/orange skies as the sun begins to fade.

It's cute when little children are there too, getting in a little argument, apologizing over a million times and then after about 5 minutes, they're BFF's again and are walking home together to go eat ice cream in cones. God, how I miss those days, everyone was friends, everyone was the same, except the natural "bullying" at times, there was still always that friend you could ALWAYS count on, as you get older, friends drift apart, really, I know I have "friends" but really, I'm friendless, because friends are someone that's ALWAYS there, someone you can ALWAYS count on. Someone that can help you through ANYTHING and EVERYTHING, someone that will share your pain, someone that will tell you that everything's okay-even when it's not. Someone that's there to keep you together when you're falling apart. Someone that can read you easier than an open book. Someone that just looks at you and says they're sorry, and you know they truly mean it. Someone that makes you feel like a person, not just a thing. Someone that's completely real with you. Someone that always has your back, not matter what. Someone that can be your "other half", your "sister". Someone that you can joke and laugh with, or cry for hours with. Someone that will bring you your homework when you're sick, or just show up when you're lonely. Everyone needs a friend, and everyone has one, but I need more than a friend, I'm different, I need a GOOD/BEST friend, someone that doesn't take advantage of me, or who I am. I just need a person that I can trust, that's hard to find these days...

Well, enough of sappy sadness! I baked cookies with the next betty crocker, ma soeur, LAWLS, sorry for the french-ness, my sister. She's so amazing at baking, she only breaks the cookies in half! But, I have to admit, she's not THAT bad.... really.

I love grocery shopping with my father, he buys like anything, it's like
"dad, can we get ice cream?"
"oh, oh-kai, oh-kai, uhmm, mom let you get it?"
"yeah, yeah" (sarcasm)
"hoh-kai, you only get one"
(come back with 2)
"Ano yan?" (fob philippino, meaning, what's that?)
"ice cream"
walk away, after saying THANKS FAJA.
:)

He loves us.
Well, I'm going to my aunts house apparently, I'll update later!

PS. Don't you hate when people just copy you?

PPS. It was my student teachers last day, God, I'll miss her!

PPPS. Sometimes being "unique" or "different" isn't that great.

breath easy,

How do I say this ?
Well, first, I'm sorry I've kind of been avoiding you; I guess I wasn't sure if your friendship was true or not, I'm still unsure, but I'm willing to try again, if you'll let me...
I kind of acted just like the person I don't want to be, and I'm never the type to hold a grudge or be angry for a long period of time, seriously, I think I am bipolar...
Okay, if you're willing to forgive me, then I'm willing to be here, I mean, I already apologized for my actions, I'm ready to face the consequences and I'm ready to be the bigger person.
Quoting the movie Camp Rock again, "Here I am".

Now that that's done, here's the brief run through of my day;
First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER O'MINE! LOVE YOU! :)
Today, I guess you can say I was content, other than the fact that I had to go see the guidance counselor because my marks "aren't at their best". Today was 'purple day', rogers TV was at our school, and some charity for epilepsy was there too, can anyone tell me, were those epilepsy pins free, because if not.... Whoops.
I'm a catastrophic catastrophe, I honestly spent the day embarrassing myself. God, everyone's jealous of my natural double chin face, like seriously guys, take it in, EAT ME.
Well, I really have to go.
I promise to update sooner !

They say a good musician is a good mathematician;

I guess I'm neither....

Everyone's allergic to poison ivy,

So on August 30, 2009 at 7:30, guess where yours truly will be?
Hmm, it would be a time of LINES, VINES AND TRYING TIMES, but I'll be there- hopefully.
I'll be watching my boys in concert, great? I'm not sure what to think, I mean, sure, I "love" them but, really ? Do I, or do I just LIKE the fact that I knew so much about them and I totally outsmart any other "fanatic"? Well, I don't know, but, I guess I'm filled with joy, but guilt, tickets are EX-PEN-SIVE, and kiddies, money DOES NOT grow on trees, especially, since it's recession and all, no one can really afford much these days. Really, maybe "my boys" should think of that, maybe a FREE FAN CLUB, and not paying for anything, I mean do you have to pay to be a fan? No. Maybe they could lower their prices, or even, give out a free concert once in a while, maybe they do, but right now, they're not helping MY FAMILY(including myself for once) this time, no way, not now, although "my boys" may not feel the wrath of it; it's recession boys, and that's the truth!

Well, although closing with that paragraph would be phenomenal, I'd like to close with this one. Today, was a killed day, it was just there. So JA* came back from Me-hi-ko, and, yes, I missed her :) Sometimes losing yourself can lead to finding someone else, if that even makes sense. But, if you stopped caring about yourself and what people think for once, maybe you'll find a true friend there in the crowd. I will be myself. I'm letting problems slide easier, if it's not my business, really, why should I care? If you want to talk about me, go ahead, "Publicity is publicity; good or bad" or the other famous saying "I rather have bad publicity than no publicity". So, once again, I'll use my now famous saying "eat me", go ahead, take a bite, "bite me", god, sometimes people can be so pathetic, quoting my boys again;

Life isn't suffocating,
Air isn't overrated.

Goodness, I'm so hypocritical sometimes...
I'm taking of my mask kids, prepare yourselves !
Time to quote another disney artist, Demi Lovato; love this movie!

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now,
I'm gonna let the light, shine on me,
Now I found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in,
No more hiding who I want to be,
this is me.

I'm so disney, but don't worry, I'm a musician, I know real music .

BITE ME,

TAKE IT IN.
I honestly don't care anymore, really, I don't.
So, today, my BFFL-let's go teenie- tells me that some girl was talking about me at lunch, apparently I "copied" her hair, PUHLEASE, don't give me that. I don't even like my hair cut, if you haven't noticed, it'll grow back and out of the rats nest it is now. Oh, and also, apparently I'm a retard or something and I make retarded noises, that's great? Well, if you have to talk about others to fell all tall and mighty then go ahead, I give you the throne, I wouldn't step down to your low level because really, it's not worth it. I'm not you, I don't want to copy anyone, it's a HAIRCUT, I didn't ask for it, if I'm copying anyone, that sucks for you I guess. It's a pretty nasty haircut anyway, why would anyone care? I don't even know who this girl was but I'm not going to make it into a big deal, I'm too smart for that- you on the other hand, good luck in life.



I have my own dreams, I don't want yours. I'm sorry if you think that's what it is, quoting my favorite boys; "I am what I am".

PS. I'm doing SO MUCH better in school now, but, Jessica is still going friendless asian nerd- oh wait, she already is? Oh....

:)

Musica!

Hey there children, Jessica has some new musical recommendations for you;

So, the first is called "Daniel" It's by Bat For Lashes, and it's a really cool song, I like it, so if you don't, then... don't listen to it?


Well, lately, I've been having this major love affair for Lily Allen, sorry if you don't like her, her songs are just so catchy! So, this song is called "Not Fair"


Another Lily Allen song that I LOVE is "I Could Say", like the above, it's from her new album "It's Not me, it's you"


ANOTHER Lily Allen song, but I love this one too, it's "22" Also from her new album, blah blah blah;

It's super Catchy and well, I just LOVE the beat and such, it's cooler then cool 8)

Darn, this is another good song too, again, it's Lily Allen, goodness, she's amazing, and she's really pretty too... Anyways, this is "Everyone's at it"
It's from her new album too, blah blah blah, goodness, I'm boring myself.



Well, I'd love to post more music recommendations- whether you take them or not- but right now, I just put quite a few... Oh goodness, well, I hope you enjoy them because I do!

PS. CHECK OUT DEMI LOVATO'S NEW VIDEO FOR "DON'T FORGET", sure her hair looks weird, and she looks mexican(no offence), and she looks really different and the video is kind of just there, but still, I like love her, so, just, check it out I guess...

OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)

I think I've been reading way to many fanfics recently...
I haven't been to the library in 2 weeks and I finished my 3 library books already. So, I turned to fanfiction, they're good replacements :)- except when you read like 50 at once and finish like 3 instead of doing work....
But, I've managed to find time to play chords on the piano et guitar :)

I went thrifting today...
I got a haircut... It's very, uhmm, "60's" if you'd like to call it that.
It's okay, I hated it at first, but meeh, it's hair, it can grow I guess.
I'm reading another fanfic atm...
Well, I don't really have any interesting news right now, but tomorrow marks another day of school, wahoo ?! I guess, I'm actually pretty hyped for school!

..... I should do my homework.

Well this is....

Awkward.


ANYWAYS;
I've been having this odd addiction to smarties recently, I've always despised them before, but they're the only "junk food" I have in my house.
they're actually pretty good, if you don't suck them but bite them... :)

Well, I'm off to go out with my parentals,
I'll be back ;)

Music's in my soul, I can hear it, everyday, everynight.

So, my March Break is slowly coming to an end, and Today was the first day of which I actually spent at home, I realize that I actually do have a life, wow, that's a huge shock....
I also spent the day watching Family Channel, where I realized that ; Mitchel Musso is actually not that bad looking, The Jonas brothers really aren't that "hot" or even THAT attractive-but they're cute in a way I guess...- Miley Cyrus is really pretty, I'm growing to like the show the Latest Buzz, I actually like Life with Derek, and I'm so pumped for the Hannah Montana movie it's crazy.

I'm really loving Taylor Swift right now, sure, she was like "girl crush" status before, but I'm actually a HUGE fan of her. I'm also really glad that a lot of her songs are easy to learn-and play :) HAR HAR HAR, Goodness, I'm so bored, tomorrow, I am going to get out more.

As of next time !

This is the part I start to bite my nails...

My nails are growing long, and I'd LOVE to cut them, but I can't find any nail clippers...
Great.
So, I figured out something hilarious yesterday, but maybe it was just a coincidence;
A lot of the Disney stars have a vowel as the second letter in their last name....
I'm so creep, but seriously, it was weird.
JONAS
LOVATO
GOMEZ
CYRUS
HUDGENS
HENRIE
AUSTIN
TISDALE
MUSSO
are just to name a few, but there are also some without the vowel....
EFRON
BLEU
OSMENT
STAUB
uhmm, there should be more, but I'm not going deep into creep.
I'm a kid, who has no life, so I thought that was pretty cool, but just kind of a coincidence I guess.

Well, today was not a slack day, okay well it sort of was...
I cooked breakfast, yes I can cook!
I LEARNED HOW TO PLAY CHORDS ON THE PIANO! I'm so piano protege it's crazy....
I learned new songs on the guitar :)
Uh, Oh, I finished that fanfic I was reading!
......
Oh goodness, I need to get a life- and some friends....

I'll escape the gravity, and I'll reach my destiny

.... and I'll fly awayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Okay, so is it just me...or do you notice it too?
I think it's kind of weird that practically EVERYONE in Hollywood is white, no offense.
I mean, it's either white-or the opposite, again, no offense-but really, would I ever have a chance?
Maybe I should stop dreaming, and once again, snap back into reality.
Mang, I don't even think I'd have a chance anyway.....
Well, I think I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
But to all those little children out there, just don't give up hope, MAYBE one day your dreams will come true, but at the moment, I'm having a lot of doubt.
Well, I'll leave you with my farewells!

Ps. I love Family Marathons! & I really, really want to watch the Hannah Montana movie....
:)

Eat me you teenies !

Goodness, how can anyone not enjoy a show when a million teenies are screaming for NOTHING.
GOD, I'm deaf because you want an "encore encore encore" GOODNESS.
Anyways, so, I watched this tribute show for "pop stars" which include, the Jonas Brothers, Avril Lavine, Hilary Duff, Miley Cyrus AND Hannah Montana. GOODNESS, children these days !
Oh, blognish, my child is not going to be like that...hopefully.
And don't you EVER associate me with little annoying teenies!
And don't people know they're NOT allowed to take pictures DURING a theater show?!

I am in love with Gregory GORGEOUS!
http://www.youtube.com/gregoryGORGEOUS
check him out!
He's so cute, I love him :)
Oh, and he goes to my school!



:)

'cause we are sisters,

I'm at my sisters work, she just talks to people, what a great job.
She burned her hand, LAWLS.
I like her coworkers :)

I just came back from being a mall rat, yuck.
I am not a fn of teenies, or mall rats, or little teenie mall rats.
Okay, I'll share more later, I'm going to watch some best of pop thingy.... yay.

breathless,

I love buffets, they let you be fat, in fact, they MAKE you be fat.
I mean, they put all that food out there to EAT not to display... so why not, wear your fat pants, and your baggy shirt, and fill your plate with that food that they will waste anyway!
HAHAHA, okay, enough of food- I'm getting hungry! Wow, I sound fat...
Anyways, so after the buffet, thank you Rania ;), we made our way to one of my favorite "book" stores Value Village, where I am happy to report that I only spent 99 cents, + 77 cents for natalie's taxation :) God, I should use "codenames" gaah, I'm too lazy to shorten the names anyway.

Okay, so I LOVE ROCKBAND & CAR JAMMIN' they're so "jammin'"!
Especially when your voice just "ejects into the mic".
HAR HAR HAR, I'm so pro at it, mang!

My mother made me some "pina colada bubble tea" it's the shizzz!
OKAY, as of next time, I'll update soon enough.
Goodness, my blog is getting boring!
I'll be sure to get a life!
:)

so bored with these games,

Biking.
In the cold.
Biking.
After a whole season of coldness.
It's not a good idea.
Especially, when you don't think to wear gloves, or a "helmet" uh, heck no am I wearing one, and you wear your thin summer jacket/sweater thing. Yeah, and your father is following you, as he calls it "spending time". Too bad he talks to the kids at the park while we're "biking", goodness, I feel sorry for those little children. An old man asks you "are you Filipino?" LJAGHSKGRKGBKSGAKSHKLABDKJSBD. Great.

Sleepovers, are not for me. Here are 5 reasons why;
1. I'm scared of the dark
2. the result, I HAVE to sleep with a nightlight
3. I'm a nerd, I HAVE to read before I sleep, it helps.
4. I'm a band geek, gimme my music mannng.
5. I'm not a "quiet sleeper", meaning, I "snore" and I move in my sleep, oh and I'm a very heavy sleeper.
6. I NEED my door open most times, when it's closed, I feel trapped...
7. I need books or something under my pillow, I don't know why.
8. My bed gives me comfort, someone elses, bleech.
:)
Basically, never even consider inviting me, danke.
Oh, and #9, I'll miss my parents, no lie.
Bleech, I'm so cool.

Okay, well, tomorrow, it is RANS* birthday lunch, hey, I'm all down for food! LAWLS, kidding, but birthdays are cute, just not mine. My birthdays are like a curse, but I'm living, and 'm happy to be here I guess. The children on J&K+8 are way too cute, my kids are going to look like that, but cuter..... if that's possible.

HAAA, okay, I'm going to go to sleep.
Get rid of these eyebags.
Woohoo!
Great, LPBW(little people big world) is going to New Orleans...
I miss you new orleans children, although I really dont....
LOL, TLC is lke my favortie channel.
HOKAY, really, I'm going to sleep now.
so, say goodnight and goodbye.

LYKE OMJ, I LYKE TOTALLY LUV DA JOBROS!!!!
- teenie talk amuses me :)

*names to be disclosed.

I've got skittles in my mouth; wanna taste the rainbow ;) ?

It's a good thing I have my library card, 'cause girl, I'm checking you out!
Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again?
I peed my pants, can I get into yours?
I lost my teddy bear; will you sleep with me?
Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
Are you a parking ticket, 'cause you got FINE written all over you!
Is your last name Campbell? "cause you're mmm mmm good.
People call me (Insert your name here), but you can call me tonight!
Did you have lucky charms for breakfast? 'Cause you look magically delicious!
You must be Jamaican, cause you're Jamaican me crazy!
If you were a booger, I'd pick you first.
If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put U and I together.

LAWLS, I love cheesy pickup lines. And Gloria S maaang, she's so cool, with her pick up lines, wooh. I miss you new Orleans children!

So, for those of you who chose to not go to school, you missed out on;
- the movie Ray in music class.
- "geolingo bingo" in geography, oh, and me embarrassing myself by winning and acting shyly, great.
- skits and creeper pictures in french.
- the teacher spazzing in french.
-JAM SESSION at lunch!
- BROWNIES in math class, too bad I'm not a fan of brownies...

oneohtwo.

Caramel tea, drinking caramel tea.
That's what I'm doing, at the moment.
And reading fanfics, those are life!
So, that pimple, the one in my ear, it popped, it was gross, and now it hurts, and I'm probably making you barf right now, but who cares :)
Anyways, my tea is really strong, now it's bitter, best of both worlds?- I wish.
Fregg, I already miss the New Orleans children in my music class, you go have fun, but without me, I doubt you will, KIDDING :)

My sister, just came out of the shower, HI JENN.
Now she's stalking me, she's right beside me, stalking me.
Watching me right this.
Okay, OH, new recommendation; LISTEN TO ALL DEMI LOVATO SONGS, seriously, Demi is my life, I love her, LAWLS. OKAY, I'm boring myself.
I'm tired, bye kiddies!

PS. Some newfound information on yours truly; I was born with diabetes, I know right!? It's odd, but apparently I can get it again if I don't eat the right foods and such. Don't ask how it went away, I was given shots for it when I was born, blaah, blaah, blaah. Anyways, it's the same type of diabetes good ol' Nicholas has. I think it may be cool to be different-oh, I already am farther than unique.

"Slow down suga', I'm diabetic."

OH SCHANPP ;

are you ready guys ? okay;
100 POSTS!
I know, no way right?
This is 101, so, wow, that's kinda huge.
I guess you can officially call me an obsessive blogger.
Moving on; MUSIC RECOMMENDATIONS!
All by, LILY ALLEN! She's amazing, and her songs are so, there I say, cool!






Enjoy these, and buy her new album "it's not me, it's you"!
Okay, well, I'll blog my 102nd post later, when I don't "teenie-talk"
LAWLS, TOODLES.

Don't you just love teenie talk?
I know I do....
Oh! and Sarcasm is always a blast!

Ps. I have a zit-in my ear. ZOMG, that's so cool....!

1000 grains of rice !?

WOOOO-HOOOO! That one's for you poverty children!
So, after being distracted from www.freerice.com, where am I now?
Not even being close to being done my geography assignment.
Great, plus those 2 tests, in my 2 worst subjects!
Oh goodness, well, at leasst I gave 1000 grains of rice... :)
OKAY, you're distracting me now, darn.
Okay, let me finish my work-which will probably take 21847932485629124 hours, and I'll be back!


=)

After everything, is this really happening ?

I think I'm just naive, or just plan stupid.
Is it really me, or do you still remember me?
I didn't think it would be THAT long since I graduated, and left you for good.
But now- now, it's as if I never existed.
Do you remember my name?
Do you Milton children still know me?
I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't- trust me, I was really nothing important...
But, who cares, so I was fbstalking- sorry- and I landed on some random profiles of some "old friends" if you'd like to call it that, and wow, I don't even remember who I am.
it's like rushing through, and then I remember every memory, seriously, it's crazy.
Maybe I am insane, but is it wrong to miss you guys?
Even though I'm pretty sure you never cared, that's okay, it was nice to survive.
So, Hello, and goodbye, maybe I should just randomly show up, do you think you'd STILL remember me?- my bets are on NOT AT ALL.

Let's leave it on the line.

Please just listen to me, for this one last time if ever.
I'M SORRY, I DO LOVE YOU & APPRECIATE YOU, REALLY.
You're not a female dog, okay?
You're my mom, and I do love you, no matter what you say.
I'll just take it in, and not exsagerate.
Okay, I know it's my fault, I'm sorry.
But really, I guess I'm kind of pathetic.
So, if you "don't want to talk to me" I guess I understand.
But know that I tried, and that I still love you.
Don't cry, please.

I didn't wanna say I'm sorry
For breaking us apart

I didn't wanna say it was my fault
Even though I knew it was

I didn't wanna call you back
Cause I knew that I was wrong

Yeah I knew I was wrong


So, if you didn't hear me yet, I'm sorry okay?


This blog is going strickly musical again.
Go to my LJ one for "emo" posts, YEAH RIGHT.
BTW, if you didn't notice yet, I changed the blog link.
Thanks for making life so great.

Got mud in your face

WE WILL, WE WILL, ROCK YOU (ROCK YOU),
WE WILL, WE WILL, ROCK YOU ROCK YOU !
Anyways, one word; absolutelyfabulouslyamazinglyincredible.
So, let's just say that the concept of it was FANTASTIC,
The band was INCREDIBLE
The actors/actresses were AMAZING
And well, just go watch it!

Apparently, it was the Scaramouche girl's last performance, Erica Peck, yes, she's leaving, but holy, no lie, she was amazing. Legit, the whole thing GAVE ME GOOSEBUMPS! Now, that was my review, take my advice; go buy tickets, sit through it, enjoy it, love it.
:)

Oh my, Oh my!

So, apparently, it's an hour later, so instead of being 11 right now, it's 12... Yay, for waking up an hour earlier!? Tomorrow, I am watching We Will Rock You downtown, it's at like 2, meaning, we get up at like what 11 now ? Oh goodness, this daylight savings time is going to kill me, Speaking of which, I have yet ANOTHER music recommendation !

JESSICA'S JAMMING MUSIC RECOMMENDATION is....
I know it's only been like 2 days, but I like this recommending stuff :)
So, I plan on doing this once a week at least.
ANYWAYS, today, go listen to this;

It's Daylight by Matt and Kim
It's a really cool song, and I like it :)
So, I hope you do too!
AND, while you're at it, go listen to their other songs!

Today, I watched Camp Rock again, this "lovebug" has bitten me again, oh goodness gracious!

Anyways, I'm super tired, I'll be hitting the hay, but don't worry, I'll update tomorrow again, after We Will Rock You & I'll give you my review!
As of next time... BYE BLOGGERS !
:D

BRAINFREEEEEEEEEEEEEZ !

So ATM(at the moment) :), I am currently engrossed in a virgin pina colada, yum. I have a ginormous brainfreez at the moment and my fingers are frozen so I am pressing random keys, gaah, but I don't really mind.

So, here's another one of Jessica's Jamming Music Recommendations, that started last week :D!
Last week, I recommended that you check out the band "milos fare"
Now, you should go lower in my posts and check them out still!
This weeks recommendation is the song WORDPLAY by Jason Mraz,
Although the video may be weird, the song is very appealing to me.
LAWLS, I randomly found it on my Ipod, no lie, I was kinda like wtf too, so don't worry.

So, Enjoy boys and girls!
BTW, I'll be posting one of these every two weeks, so watch out lovers of all things music!
:)

NTS, NEVER drink two glasses of ice cold blended virgin pina colada's, you'll end up freezing and shaking like a maniac and missing the keys on your keyboard and imaptiently awaiting for the throbbing brainfreez to go away, OUCH, crap, great, I just bit my lip because it was trembling....
I'm so smart.

Don't say goodye yet,

I came out of my shell, but now I'm going back in.

MUHAHAHA :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-yeiEFjxNis
CHECK OUT THIS VIDEO :)

+ I don't want to go to school tomorrow-at all, that is all.
Goodbye for now, mang, I'm sorry I have no time to update before my mom kills me!
ARRRGH !

(On a brighter side, I wrote a new rap-and song... :])

Let's all fail epicly !

Midterm reports, they aren't supposed to show your actual mark-unless you got under 50%, well, you guessed it, Iamnotanytypeofasianatall, in fact, I am the complete opposite, stupid. UGGH!, no matter how hard I try, each time I get bit in the butt for doing something wrong, for not understanding completely! Did I fail to mention that my other blog post for my fanfic-which, if I may add was like a whole page- didn't save. How does it not save when it AUTO SAVES ?! Gaah, life is currently holding something against me-my brains which I never had and the willpower that I need, also, maybe I need some courage like the lion from the wizard of Oz. I'm just going to call my dog Toto from now on, then maybe I'll turn into Dorthy and get some red sparkly slippers! Yeah, uh, no. Moving on, I am way too mad about wasting my time writting my fanfic to repost again. I'd also like to mention that today I wrote a rap!, AMG, no way?! It is titled "Math rap", also I added yet another song to my list(which is 63, btw), hooray for being nerds and writting songs, did I mention that I actually composed this song too?! I KNOW? AMG. LAWLS.

Okay, so here's a taste of the math rap;

(second verse)
TJ ISLAME is yelling in my ear,
she's so loud the whole class can hear!
Louder than a rock band,
louder than a broken hand
keeps on going, going, going on
never stopping, never gone
Oh, horrid dreaded math class,

(chorus)
M-A-T-H, I rather pull out my eyes
M-A-T-H, it's never a surprise
M-A-T-H, is way to overrated,
M-A-T-H, so, so complicated!

THAT'S ALL I'M GOING TO SHOW YOU :)

OKAY, so at this moment, my mother is nagging my sister for not being "wholesome", which can be really hilarious, but serious. WA-OH, that's alot of rhyming! HAHAHA, Okay, I'm going to stop being a nerd, and once my mother and sister stop arguing maybe I'll try to repost another chapter of my fanfic, darn, it was actually the most intense chapter that I've ever written in life, darn.


The conversation which is happening right in front of my face;
"I told you to go out to excersise" Mom
"No, you tell us that we're going to get rapped" Jenn
"where the He-- I know where you are!? Going out when I'm not home?!" Mom
"It's like right there!" Jenn
"You stay home!" Mom
"I might as well be AMISH" Jenn
"PARTY PARTY?! YOU STUDY, DON'T GIVE ME THAT STUPID THING!" Mom
___________________

NOTE TO SELF; NEVER EVER EVER LET YOUR MOTHER HELP YOU "TRIM" YOUR EYEBROWS -BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO LIFE OR ACCESS TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD OR THE COMPUTER/TELEVISION AND YOU ARE BORED-ESPECIALLY WHILE SHE IS SCREAMING AT YOUR SISTER AND TAKING IT OUT ON YOUR POOR EYEBROWS, WHICH NOW END UP LOOKING LIKE A TINY TINY TINY RIBBON, FML :)

I still love my mother though, she's starting to trust me now that she reads my blog (everyday) and I talk to her about life, which she ends up mocking anyway, oh great, before I get into anything else, G'bye!

:)

PROMOOOOOOOOO, which came out like a month ago, but still.

Although I do not have disney channel, I will be watching this-online- muhaha, I'm such a rebel.
WOAH, my mood swings are insane!

snap back at reality,

if you can, it can get very difficult. All my life, I've basically been living-not a lie- but a dream, a daydream which would hopefully lead to my destiny. I mean, I've always felt as if I knew where I was going, how I was going to get there, no, not as in a simple car ride, but in a roller coaster of life. So, I'm achieving some goals, which means also, leaving some behind;

• I'm actually doing all my homework- and finishing it.
• I'm not leaving my "obsession" behind, not yet
• I've been writing a lot less depressing, emotional songs lately
• I've been studying-ish and trying to do better in math.
• oh, and I tried to stop daydreaming about the impossible.
  

My list of failures is growing shorter and shorter, as I finally well, snap back to reality. Although, lately I have been finding myself getting addicted to reading fanfics again, and blogging here a lot less!

No one seems to understand me. No one understands my story, or the story behind my "depression" and "obsession". It started way back, when I was like in grade 5 or something, when I first got bullied and some kid spat at me. Sure, it hurt, but sure, the kid had some anger management problem, but do you really want someone else's saliva on you? I didn't think so. So, usually, if I had a problem as such, I'd run home to my grandpa, or my mom and dad since my only living grandparent died when I was like 4 or 5, but it felt as if I'd known him my whole life, as if he's still here, which I like to think it as. Anyways, grade 5 was also the year my parents started leaving me alone with the care of my 18 month older sister. The year I wrote my first song. Fast forwarding, In the year of late 2006, I found a song online, it was please be mine, and that was the first time I've ever heard a Jonas Brother song. It wasnt' until mid 2007 when I heard their other songs, and then instantly fell in love. Sure, I didn't like LOVE LOVE them at first, but there was something. Anyways, each time I've ever felt unloved or depressed or excluded, I could relate to at least one or two of their songs. So, I hadn't actually grown an "obsession", which I still believe that I don't have, until early 2008.

I've gone through a lot that year, my mom and dad seemed to have been losing a lot of faith in me, they started thinking that I'd never get anywhere, unlike my "close to perfect" sister who was starring in Broadway shows and landing auditions with her agent, obviously, you kind of get some sort of jealousy with all the success not coming from you. Then I got accepted into an Arts school for piano, the next month, my mom tells me to quit piano, because I "have no feeling for it anymore" which I obviously did, I mean, how else could I go to an arts school without even playing the instrument anymore? I turned to music, which I've been doing my whole life, but I'd started writing songs and taking an intrest with playing other instruments. I wrote my first song in grade 5, when I was like 11 or 12 or something. It was stupid, but, hey, at least I did it.

Now, I've grown attached to the 3 boys which I forced myself to beileve was "just a phase". Too bad everyone else around me belived it was an obsession. I denied this each and everytime, refusing that I was obsessed, but dedicated. To me, it's more than a obsession or a dedication, to me, it's more like a love affair. And I'm not planning to let it all go again, I've been through so much, but I've gained alot more respect for music too. Now here I am, 62 songs written later and not as depressed as I was before, a whole lot stronger, and a lot more respectful, so thank you Jonas Brothers for helping me through my life. Maybe I should try a lot more harder to make my "destiny" come true, as a destiny should.